Being GREATful

 I have a big heart to lend my things, but not big enough to accept an ungrateful attitude. I am generous enough to share my belongings but not enough to not care about your thanklessness!

Not pointing anyone in particular but yes this entry has been influenced by some recent events in my life. I am sad the way people have turned out. I am sad to see the change; bad change. You can’t take me or my things for granted. Why me alone? You shouldn’t take anybody for granted. Being obliged is one of the first few things we are taught. And it doesn’t mean for few weeks or few years, it entails for a life time.

I am not some saint mahatma. I am simply human who would like a ‘thank you’ look instead of a casual expression of “what’s mine is also yours”! It’s not! It’s just because I never put a lock. It’s just because I never say a NO! But what shocks me is that I don’t receive the same vibes!

And this unthankful attitude sometimes wants me to pack up my things and keep the key to myself; to be unreachable; to be private.  But I guess that’s not me. I wished you could understand.

Pakhi

Aahans Photo shoot

My first attempt in shooting kids. Its not easy to click their picture, you cant ask them to look this side neither can you make them sit at a place. They constantly run away making you run after them. Only advantage you have with them is whichever expression they give, they always look adorable. It makes any picture look lovely.and leaves you with a tough choice for selecting the best.

The Unforgettable Day

They don’t have parents. They don’t have someone they can put their demands on rightfully. They don’t have permission to step out of the premises of the orphanage. They do what they are told to do, nothing less nothing more. They accept what they get with smiling faces and they suppress their inner wishes with the same. They are kids; they are naïve; they are just 5- 10 years old yet they have an understanding like that of an adult. They know that until and unless its sheer luck, they are never going to get the childhood they deserve…

It was a beautiful day today. No, not because of the weather neither for it was a Sunday and my parents were out of station; But because I gave my bit to these kids today. Especially to this 5 year old girl who kept on holding my hand and playing with my purse. I felt at peace. I wanted her to keep holding it and I guess she wanted the same. 

For those who don’t understand what they are reading, just go and share time with these children, because they are always waiting for you. For those who think they are done living in this selfish world, go to an orphanage, give your love and you will come back home happier than ever. Just do it!

Pakhi
17.02.13

PS: (referring to Aahaan members) I am glad that I have group of people with whom I can share this feeling.

Being Happy

                                                                          

I don’t want to say it again and again and jinx it, but I have been living a really happy life lately. I have got people complaining about theirs and I am like, haha that was my past, my silly old past! C’mon stop cribbing; there is so much to do! They end it with, “Leave, you won’t understand.” 

Stability both emotionally and socially is a new experience for me right now and I am loving it, more importantly my parents are loving it. That makes me jollier.

‘Log toh kahenge he, logo ka kaam hai kehna’; once you overcome this fear, life seems so colorful. You just see the positive; you just see what you want to see out of the situation, out of the people. There is not much theory into this. No philosophical books by great writers can help, unless YOU decide to stop caring about anything and everything. Anyway I don’t want to go into all that teaching giving and make this article a bore…

All I meant to tell was, each day I feel I am living and not just surviving. 

Simply happy,

Pakhi

Happy 19 Prateek!

I seriously don’t know where to start from. Prateek Jain, you have been the best friend for all of us! You understand each one of us. It’s because of you that we all are still fighting, still gossiping, still laughing at past jokes and still building some great memories. Thank You for always being there.

 I have never seen a guy whom nobody hates; I have never seen a guy who hates nobody. It’s rare. You are rare. And I am in no way going to lose you. The bhaii-behan relationship is just to ensure that we remain best friends forever and ever. And my future husband has nothing to be jealous of except that you will be living a handsome 60 and he will be all wrinkly and worn out!  Haha!

We all loved Mrs Laghate for her sarcasm, didn’t we?

Eeeeeeee PRATeek! The relationship we guys share with you is of pure love and selflessness. There is no ego, no negativity nothing. I don’t know how you do it but my mood swings for good whenever I think of you. 

Be you always! Be the Prateek we all are so fond of.  Happy Nineteen Prateek!

With loads of LOLness

Paridhi

AUTO CORRECT: SU'A'RBHI

...felt the picture perfect for the article below ;)

This one is for you Surbhi...

Okay firstly I am so sorry for peaking into those private pages of your life. I definitely need to grow up as you have written in one of your entries. Yeah I read it. Damn, I can be so awful at times. I reread that letter I once wrote to you; can you do me a favor? Just burn it and flush it! It was so mean of me, although I did make a point which I felt was right at that time but I could have done it in a better way. Curse my tongue! I seriously want to apologize.

I constantly remind you about the days I hate you, the things I hate about you, the specific habits I just can’t adjust with but I forget to mention that sometimes I do miss sharing room with you. I don’t even like that bag now, for which I fought with you in school and didn't talk for almost a week. I forget to tell you that even I have realized, this laptop lies dead mostly these days, which you must have already noticed yet kept quiet. Thanks! Pardon me for never admitting what a blessing you are for me Surbhi, keeping in mind my widely famous mood swings. I am just too jealous of you that you keep your life so balanced. It annoys me to see you so happy. I hate to confront those tear-less eyes while I keep crying for trivial issues.

Of course along with me being a kid, it’s us being the same age that created problems. But we have grown up. I have grown up; at least enough to realize mistakes later on. I really wish life had an undo button. But it doesn't. I made mistakes but I can’t erase them now. All I can do is create a new memory for you and for me. Love you sissy!

Pakhi

PS:  I really liked that line surbhi, if I interpreted it right, where you wrote that despite all the madness i am      born with you cant help caring about me. aaahh! Guess when its family, we have no other option but to love  unconditionally. :) 

Just Say It

Here I am happy and content, at least at the moment. For I have learnt the easiest way to do away with allthe stupid thoughts; thoughts that eat up your mind and keeps you in pain for a relatively long span.

I am not a diplomat so it becomes really hard for me to maintain a healthy relationship with people who don’t know me from the start or I would always need a responsible mutual friend who can take care of the situation as and when required. I speak my mind, that’s what I have been doing since the day I learnt the fact that mind thinks. I am not saying I am always right. I am human; I may have totally opposite thoughts on two different days about the same situation, it’s your luck which day you mess up with me.  haha!

I have been friends with a lot of people recently. Random people. College people. Friends friends. From some I got attached, while some got attached to me. But after school, it was on me how to take care of my relationships. There was no person telling me or guiding me or cheering me up! So while I made many friends, I lost quite a number. It was not easy, that phase, but it was all learning.

I learnt that instead of cooking up some stupid thought, or making a conclusion about someone, it’s better to talk to that person rather than someone else because the mutual friend may not be mature enough. I learnt that the bond you are making right now is not that strong even if your mind think it is, and therefore a slightest bit of mistake can break it. I learnt that talking to a stranger does help because of the comfort he gives or the consoling words but only for a short period. If you simply discuss things with the person you think you have problem with, by letting your ego go, your mind will be a damn better place for other activities.

And I am happy learning all that. While what’s gone is gone, there is still more to come and more to learn.

Pakhi

(Mad girl who definitely thinks A LOT :P )