"Its 20! Its High Time!" - DAD

24^th April, 2013

HAH!

Same daily routine; College, gym, TV, FB, opening books and dozing off! Same old same old! Only exams are on their way and I have no idea how am I going to manage an 8 pointer.

Anyway this is not what I was supposed to be writing here. The incident took place a few days back. Not a big-big incident but a small dull family discussion for you all. I was just trying to feel all responsible and happy, mature and free, that I am going to turn twenty soon, when dad interrupted in a very serious tone,      “ You will turn twenty but you don’t have knowledge like that of a 20 year old.”

Ouch! That did hurt!

I tried to make a list of things for which I could say I have thorough knowledge about.  Since I am an Indian girl let me begin with Kitchen:

• Kitchen: ZERO
• General Knowledge/ Awareness: Almost ZERO
• Any interests- Cars/Bikes/ Movies-actor, actresses/ Pets:  approximately 10 percent
• Photography: 50 percent
• City Knowledge: 20 percent
• Politics\Indian History: HAHA! Leave.
• Sports: Tennis ( that too not stable)
• Gym\Diet Plan: No research done after what the gym trainer told.  (: |)
• Shopping stores, Brands: I go, I buy. That’s always the story. 

Okay let me not humiliate myself more on this social platform. But you got the point, right?  Pretty bad status, isn’t it? And then I taunt others. I taunt some for not attending college and wasting time. What good has college done to me, haan? I go, wait till lecturer takes the attendance and leaves. That’s what I go there for. I have no idea what instrumentation, what electronics! I don’t know why the current is flowing a particular direction, why the voltage increases, why to change analog to digital, why whatever!      

Yes I blame myself! Obviously! And it’s not that I don’t understand the logic behind the machines my mechanical sir teaches, it’s just that I find myself hardly interested in that greasy area!

Tell me is it my fault? 

*sob sob*

I also tried to read some great book on Indian civilization, how the Aryans came, our origin, then gradually entering into Mughal era; But I stopped it there. Haven’t picked it up yet! And apparently when the touch is lost into something you were already doing out of pressure, the things start to erase from your memory. At least they did from mine.  

NO! NO! I will never say time is the problem. Two years back while I was a PCM student running from school to 4hrs coaching classes to hours of assignment sheets plus the in between tests, I did learn not to blame time if not anything else. Yes my love for a good sound sleep has never ever stopped…but! Anyway…

Isn’t it such a sorry state? Being in the world where information about anything and everything is just a click away, I am living in pure ignorance. I am feeling bad really bad. I do hope this spark of interest in me doesn't go off with a blink like always; indeed it shall stay and become stronger with time.

Deeply in thought,

Pakhi

PS: Well just for info is it just my story? Or you there (pointing majorly towards the girl half) lie almost in the same situation? 

I completed with 1000 likes on my fb page recently! :D I wish to do more! I hope to enter into this field soon!
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PS: This is a wall my room i drew some faces on! :) 

PEOPLE. COLORFUL PEOPLE.

Today I chose to write about the people around me; most of them my age, living with parents just like I am. It’s so interesting to observe them. They are all so different yet they manage to find themselves in the pit of sadness for a while. For those who don’t know them much, they are entirely different persons but if you look deep within, they have got a beautiful heart.

I will start with this girl I am friends with for over 3 and a half years. She is of my caste and religion and the only neighborhood friend I have; also my major inspiration behind this write-up. If you will hear her story, you will find yourself in a much better situation, believe me. Of course until your mom is also a narrow minded small town lady, who had been in depression for a year and you have got a 12 years younger brother to take care of with financial condition not being that great. Despite all these tensions, she manages to laugh and chatter; to watch movies, get into some relationships and still be an eight pointer.

Moving on to a jackass who has been a real sweetheart for me lately. Well if you ask me the exact amount I don’t know, but yeah he is rich. He is rich yet a down to earth kameena with nexus and iphone 5 in both his pockets. The heart is pure as gold, but outside he portrays a very different picture. Well at least I think he does. What he will show to the world is a don’t care attitude, being rough and tough, usage of gawaar language packed with self created abusive inputs. But what I think, he probably is, is a sweet guy, who will take care of his people with a selfless attitude. He does expect some care in return but won’t ever say it. It’s not his ego but yeah something doesn’t let him speak his heart out which he would fake by using some socially unacceptable crap of his. I am not a doc but as a friend I feel he has got depth inside; once he knows that you understand he will start sharing.

Switching on to a wonderful friend of mine; he is the best friend for all of us. I don’t know a single soul who hates him or might have except of course our science teacher in class 7^th. Until few years back everything was fine for him, loving home, loving parents, and loving friends of course. But recent fights between his parents is what I think, he least deserves. He doesn’t share it with me although and would pretend everything is normal inside his head; all I hope is that it really is.

It took me nearly two years to from an opinion for a close college friend I am now going to talk about. Because until now, my views for her had never been constant; not in terms of good or bad but her degree of closeness to me. They kept varying with my mood or with life and mess. She is sweet, she is carrying, and she will be there for you but up to a certain limit.  She has set her boundaries and priorities well back in life and in no cost she changes them. Family always seems to be her first and the last priority. She makes friends, have fun with them, give them time as well but she is not willing to give them her whole heart and soul, not even to few. At first I didn’t like it much (me being a total friend person) but later on realized it’s her life and her outlook towards friendship. It’s her fear and her decision to be all clear and detached.

Another college friend is totally opposite to the one mentioned above. She loves people insanely which for me isn’t normal as well. She gets attached and then super attached unable to understand that the world is not a safe place to be anymore. She lives in a world of fantasy when it comes to friends. I believe this girl has a lot to learn. Also instead of giving someone else the right to keep changing her mind, she must have her own belief system, her own practical view point towards life and life related issues.

List of people will never end. I will keep adding my views and opinions as I continue to meet and understand human beings and their emotions; for somehow I love to observe people and probably the answer to why I love capturing them through my lenses. Rather capturing the hidden.

From a keen observer,

Pakhi

 PS : Be nice to me. You might me the next i choose to write :P 

Happy Goes Lucky Goes SCAREDeeeeee!

It’s totally weird and it’s weirdly real! It’s unearthly for me not to have any kind of ups and downs; not to have those sudden pangs of loneliness and unhappiness; not to be found crying in room or on phone talking to besties about sad entangled mess I belong to. It’s like I have found the answer to eternal happiness and no can do me wrong. No can destroy my inner peace!

Okay that went a little dramatic, agreed; but seriously, all these days I have been searching for one sad end that I can pen down about, one mood swing I can tell you guys about, anything that was out of the normal routine life, but to my surprise- none did I find!

And today a friend asked, “What happened to your blogging Paridhi?”

 Jeez! you care! Really? WOW! YAYie!

So this entry is going to be about all the random stuff - happening, non happening; all the happy stories that make me smile before I go to sleep; all the new things in my life. This entry is either going to bore you or leave you with a smile on your silly poker face.

Here it goes…

Like broken bones *some* broken relationships can be repaired. It just takes time to heal the fractured part and then everything joins back. And I am glad it happened with me too. A friend I never wanted to have awkward relations with is back in my happy -happy life making it much happier! Oshin Lonsare that one goes for you!

I have always wanted to have a group of friends whom I could proudly tag as *friends forever*, only I realized it much later I already have them! Best Friends I made in school have stuck by me through thick and thin. Trains and flights separate us now, yet whenever we meet nothing seems to have changed. And that feeling is fricking awesome!

Yes I am a friend’s person and I am totally and proudly one! I can’t call anybody my bestie just like that; they can be my very good friends, close friends, but bestie, that term can’t be used so loosely! I know these days even a boyfriend- girlfriend is made within seconds but hey sorry! When I say best friends forever, I mean it. And I am glad I have *my people*. I am lucky I have my extended family!

Since you all belong to my *blog reading club* I give you equal rights as any of my friends. So I will let you know something, however embarrassing it may sound, it’s like I have got this huge crush on one of my gym trainers! This sentence has given you enough information, hasn’t it? Hehe! Look I don’t believe in getting skinny thin (not possible even) or fatty fat. I want a fit body, body that can run miles, that can bend as and when required, that can endure stress and I hope, I sincerely hope to be that body. A body that can later on proudly flirt with that gym trainer I was talking about! Eeeeee!

I am shining! All the sweat and calories I burn it shows on my face. The right attitude I am filled with makes my eyes gleam! The good people I have around me make my heart jump! The less I need, the better it makes me feel. Control over my senses has definitely empowered me with an everlasting satisfaction! And believe me it’s the best you can feel. And I swear this paragraph was written entirely by me. No copying! 

Lately the only thing that is giving me heebie-jeebies is to decide what path to take after Graduation. The clock is ticking and I have to reach to an answer soon! Still 2 to 3 months left to prepare my mind so this part will be elaborated in my future entries.

I am running out of money as well. Gym membership, skin treatment doesn’t really leave me with an option to ask dad for pocket money! So that makes my lips curl the wrong direction! But ohkay, I force my friends to give me treats and well you know how it all goes…(Ankita Deshpande and Oshin Lonsare must be wishing to kill me right now! :P )

So all in all, Present is going on great. I wish I could have had a stable earning by now; still figuring out how I can improve upon my marketing skills and also time management, which has always been my dads’ favorite reason to scold me. 

PS:  Results for 3^rd semester (yeah this is how it is in RGPV) can come any moment, so its better I end my Happy go lucky life article here only. It’s true however good the present may be, future still lies in shadow.

Damn! Suddenly I am scared!I am so scared! 

O.o

Pakhi